Thank you for being so patient with me!
It’s been hella year for our heroine. Mostly health related and don’t worry, I’m not going to kvetch about details. We also just moved in a hurry after at the last moment being offered a ground floor unit in a nicer apartment complex. Snagged it in a hurry!
I have not been writing. I do plan to do NaNoWriMo, so I need to get started on at least some planning and flash writing to build traction. The NaNo I began last year is in such dire need of revision (as in the first six chapters need to go!), I may use that as my NaNo and write it from word one. There are characters I didn’t develop who would add great texture to a rewrite. No cheating, though. Some plotting/planning and then writing from word one.
I’ve had some interesting ideas for writing lately, but unusually, they’ve just gone up in puffs of smoke when I consider writing. I’m beginning my own storystarters file so I can get hold of them properly. Here’s hoping I have something new to show you soon.
In the meantime, I wish you great words, great fortune, and really shiny worlds!
Writing the last story I posted, Emptiness, really threw me off center. Such a small thing, a short flash. I didn’t expect the difficulty I faced writing it. I certainly didn’t expect the soul searching which came after.
The title was appropriate to the story, but I think it had more to do with how I felt about it. It took three days to write the rough draft. I dragged my feet because I knew where I was going with it and was horrified to face it, horrified to think I could contemplate it. Self-recrimination and introspection went on for days after. Silly thing to happen, but there it is. I avoided writing, avoided thinking about the whole issue for a while. I think stepping away, even in that manner, helped.
I wrote a flash this morning. I’ll post it on Friday. It’s not one which left me questioning myself. One thing I did learn from this process, though: if … no, when… another dark horror idea comes my way, I’ll write it and take joy in bringing a new story into the world.
Balance is a good thing.
Our heroine has spoken of her NaNo Curse before, dear Reader. Briefly, each time NaNo comes along, something happens to throw me off track. Minor illness, sprained limb, near misses with an ongoing major illness – you get the idea.
This year, the NaNo Curse holds me firmly in its fetid jaws. A desperately bad first week meant huge amounts to make up. Doable? Surely. And so I marched on, chanting like The Little Engine that Could, “I think I can, I think I can.”
Then came the hospitalization and requisite rehabbing.
Do I still think I can? Well, perhaps I *can* and believe me I shall try my best. I’m here to tell you I don’t think I’ll actually make the 50k this year. That’s a hard admission for someone who usually hits it around the 10th of the month, writing 5k per day. Still, things are as they are.
This is a remarkable exercise for me, though. I’m plunked down in my own advice: embrace the SPIRIT of NaNo! The spirit is to Just Write. Write as you can, when you can, and you’ve already won NaNo. The parent who works full-time and still throws into the fray of NaNo has my highest respect, no matter the total at the end. The student who fights against a full-time schedule just to fit writing in? Props to you. The parent who cares for children all day long and while exhausted after sits in front of the glowing screen creating a story? Amazing to me.
So yeah, I’ve had setbacks. Some doozies. But if they can stick with writing, no matter their total at the end, so can I. Here goes!